I'm starting to think that I might be part of some big, long con. I just found out from Jim that the ten-year-old boy that Tom's team captured from the raft is now being held in the Hydra station, and they're attempting to use brainwashing techniques to wipe his memory of being captured, so that he'll be more receptive to joining our community. Jim and I now suspect that these people might've done the same thing to us when they "rescued" us from the beach! It would certainly explain why I don't remember actually being brought here from the beach. If our suspicion is true, then I'd really like to know!
In the kid's case, though, something has apparently gone horribly wrong with the brainwashing procedure, but we're not sure exactly what. The only reason I found out about all this is because I happened to be on Hydra Island, working with Danny's team to take additional measurements for the runway, and I needed to go into the station to grab an extra notepad. As I approached the building, I noticed there were sirens blaring, and I wasn't sure if I should go inside, then Ben came up behind me and said, "Excuse me," and marched straight inside the building, so I followed him in. People were frantically running around inside, and I found Jim standing in the hallway, kind of in a daze, so I asked him what was going on, and he explained everything to me. After a while, the alarms stopped, and I finally got a glimpse of the kid -- an African-American boy who looked more scared than angry. Juliet and Diane led him over to another room with an old Apple II computer (what is with these people and outdated technology?!?!), where it looked like he was instant-messaging someone.
After that, I just couldn't bring myself to continue working, so I told Danny that I was feeling sick (which was sort of true), and he gave me permission to go back to the main island with Jim. We're on our way there now. I think I might go talk to Harper about this when I get there. I'm curious to see what she has to say about this brainwashing stuff.
Jim and I just talked with Harper (after we interrupted a session she was having with Ben's daughter), and she admitted that our suspicions were true about having been taken by force from the beach and then brainwashed in the Hydra station to wipe our memories, just like they're trying to do with that kid. I was actually surprised that Harper was so easily upfront about it. When I asked her why nobody had told us this before, she explained that it was decided that we weren't ready to know the truth until we began to question it. She even admitted that it was deceptive and understood our defensive reactions to it, but insisted that the whole indoctrination procedure was for our own good. After listening to our protests a bit more, Harper asked us to consider what our lives have been like over the past month that we've been here, compared to how things would've been if we'd chosen to leave the Island, regardless of how we ended up here. That's when I realized that it's pointless to continue protesting, since we're here now and have been living fulfilling lives on the Island. What it comes down to is that what was done against our will was done because of what we didn't know and would've fought against. For whatever reason, Jacob chose me to be a part of this society protecting this special place, and to turn my back on it now would be the worst choice I could make. I'm still having mixed feelings about it, but I probably just need to sleep on it, like Harper recommended.
Oh, and when I got home, I found a memo that Ben had sent out this morning, announcing that the radio silence has been lifted. Apparently someone discovered the source of one of the radio transmissions -- a small plane that had crashed in the jungle a few years ago and had recently fallen from a cliff, possibly when one of the survivors tried to use the plane's radio, and now that radio has been destroyed.
Okay, it's been a long day, so I'm just going to make dinner, and then relax and read some more of those Oceanic survivor files before going to bed. I'm kind of interested to read the one on the former Iraqi soldier.